it’s been a while since i posted anything…i guess it could be writer’s block…or just ennui about blogging…or simply that life has been crazy keeping a full time job, full time schooling, and a family to raise.
with that said, i wanted to write tonight.
i met a man the other day on my way home from work. it was a coincidental meeting. i was coming up to the train stop to go home and the metrolink dude asked for my ticket. this in and of itself is quite unusual. so i gave it to him and as i did he saw the book i was carrying and commented, “Baugh Oh i’ve read that.”
i found this a little odd, because not too many people read greek grammar books for fun. so i asked him why he read it, etc. i ended up deciding to miss my train and take the next one so i could chat with him. it was an unusual providential meeting, i suppose. he had graduated from seminary not too long ago and now is working as a metrolink guy. he wants to get into law enforcement, but nothing has opened up for him yet. this certainly was unique. he spoke a little about why he was doing what he was doing. he said that he had had a small crisis of faith and didnt feel he could shepherd people if he wasnt sure about things himself.
certainly understandable.
i told him a bit about the last couple years for me. they have been extremely difficult personally. i have been very down in the dumps. i found brief respite, but have again fell back into the blues. so i understand why a man could choose to quit what he believed he was called to do. i have felt the same from time to time. may genoito! (may it never be – in greek) i do desire to be full of faith and faithful. blessed be God because He is faithful when we are faithless.
Filed under: Religion | Tagged: Christianity, faith, seminary
hmmm.. maybe we misinterpret our call sometimes, and the things we seem to stumble into are where we’re meant to be… like making conversation at the train. I think we often confuse our occupation with our call, when it’s our call that steers us in the right direction. Not our career.
cindy
i think u are absolutely right. often we jump head first into something because we think that is what God wants, when in reality, it may be something entirely different.
with that said, i dont think He wants any of us to stray from Him. when i said it was ashame that he isnt where he was called, i really meant its ashame that he has had a crisis in faith. because no matter whether a pastor or a metrolink worker, he can glorify God.
peter
LOL… the funny thing is, as selfish as this is, I spoke of my own walk in Faith. He he. : )
I left school with an A.A. and no where to go… Luckily I met the man of my dreams right away, that helped with the feeling lost, but ended up cooking for a career. I never in a million years thought that could even be a career, Ha! nor did I believe I wanted it as one!
Now with my husband on the fast lane to making enough for all of us, I sit on the fence of going back for my BA, and then my MA or seminary, or both. However, what holds me back, ironically, I love interracting with the people I work with, especially the college kids. They are great and I inadvertantly became the matriarchal point of light.
It’s a call I can fulfill anywhere, I know, but my lesson, I found, was my career will never be who I am. If I can be happy with tomato sauce on my face, I know the Faith given to me is here to stay, not to be waivered.
I know that is my walk.. and it took plenty of heartache to get there, but am fortunate to be there. I certainly understand the feeling of loss in God’s relationship with us… I think it’s an important junction to navigate.
cindy
yeah…it sounds like God brought you somewhere you didnt expect. you can count on that i think however…whether we are right about what we believe He is calling us to or not. God has a funny way of bringing us into unexpected paths that lead exactly where he wants… but sometimes this can be very uncomfortable.
pb
How is CTS going for you?
John
john
sorry it took me a while to respond. i havent been using this too much. its going great. i finished the first semester with good grades and more importantly learned so many great life lessons. anyway, how are thing with you? are you out of the army? or are you in for a little longer?
peter